All i wanna know.. is if i'ts worth it in the end..
will my dreams come ture?
will we still be freinds??
My mood of the moment..
°º°º°º°º°»»ABOUT ME««°º°º°º°º°
¤Name¤ Alyssa ¤Nickname¤ Lyssa ¤DOB¤ 4/20 ¤Astrological Sign¤ Tarus ¤Height¤ 5'2 ½ ¤Eye/hair Color¤ Dark Brown ¤Significant Other¤ single... ¤Family¤ Mom, Dad, 2 bunnies ¤Pets¤ 2 bunnies: Pewter and Sterling ¤School¤ 9th grade SHS
°º°º°º°º°»»FAVORITES««°º°º°º°º°¤¤ Color¤ baby blue ¤Food¤ salads ¤Drink¤ oragne Jucilues ¤Candy¤ gum??! ¤TV Show(s)¤ Charmed, boy meets world, Glimore Girls, 7th Heaven,Made, anythign on MTV or VH1 ¤Movie(s)¤ Bring it on, Sweet Home Alabma, Dragon Fly, Drum Line, ANNIE! ¤Song(s)¤ Swing Swing , Stuck on you, White Flagg, Dumb Girl, MY immortal!!!! ¤Lyric(s)¤ Did you think that I would cry, on the phone? Do you know what it feels like, being alone? I'll find someone new
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of My heart is crushed by a former love Can you help me find a way To carry on again. *Swing Swing- All American Rejects*
I know I left 2 much mess And destruction to come back again And I caused but nothing but trouble I understand if you cant talk 2 me again And if you live by the rules of "Its over" Then Im sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will B
And when we meet As Im sure we will All that was then Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And u will think That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be *white flag* i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along*My immortal*
¤Actress(es)¤ myself JK! ¤Boy Name(s)¤ Andrew, Dustin ¤Girl Name(s)¤ Marley Alexis ¤Junk Food¤ ice cream cake ¤Music Genre¤ various ¤Word(s)¤ PEACHY ,spiffy, just ducky! ¤Number(s)¤ 21 or 3 ¤Season¤ spring ¤Day of the week¤ Saterday ¤Instant Messenger¤ AIM or YAhoo ¤Month¤ April (my b-day) ¤Domestic Animal¤ rabbit ¤Wild Animal¤ elephant ¤Fruit¤ strawberrys ¤Veggie¤ crubumer ¤Fast Food Restaurant ¤ TGI FRidays ¤Other Restaurant ¤ 103??
* "One day you'll want me as I wanted you- One day you'll think of me as I thought of you- One day you'll cry for me as I cried for you- One day you'll love me... But I won't love you".
This is a retake of my life... I was his star for many nights. Now the roles have changed, And your the leading lady in his life. Lights cameras action, Now your on. Just remember you've been warned... Enjoy it now cuz it wont last, Same script...Different cast....
The only people who can hurt you are the ones you love, because if it wasn't love then you wouldn't care.
at times i get the feeling that no one cares, but other times i feel like im sitting on top of the world..it all comes down to your friends, and in the end, i find you really do need a best friend..and for those times, im greatful that there's you...
*Begin somewhere; you cannot build a reputation on what you intend to do*
*To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart
*Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around*
who am i?
are you sure you want to know?
the story of my life is not for the faint of heart.
if somebody said it was a happy little tale...
if somebody told you i was just your average ordinary girl, not a care in the world...
somebody lied.
*In just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday*
*Look forward, not backward. Be a leader, not a follower. Focus on your successes and learn from your failures*
*You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future*
I am scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend or sister or confidant, but never quite somebody's everything..........
I'm always behind the scenes... never the star.. I'm ALways the friend.. never the girl.
HaVe you eVeR WoNDeReD WHiCH HuRTS MoST; SayiNG SoMeTHiNG aND WiSHiNG u HaDNT oR SayiNG NoTHiNG aND WiSHiNG you HaD
On the outside, Im happy and carefree I smile, laugh, and talk I smirk, giggle, and shout But on the inside I'll always have my doubts....
[[b e h i n d]] these big brown eye`s of mine,lay [[t e a r s]] that go uncried. tears of [[r e g r e t]], saddness, sarrow, and pain,these feelings i [[c a nt]] deny.....
Everyone has that special someone in their life. Even if they don't know they have that special person... they do. Someone special is someone who always listens to you and what you have to say. Someone special always makes you feel good about yourself and who you are. Sometimes special people come into our lives and we will never forget them. They make u cry and you are so upset you aren't with them, but for some reason you still love them. There is something about that special someone that you cant explain to anyone and they don't understand. But I know and you know that true love never did run smooth and there is always a chance for everyone. Love is one of the hardest things and when you find that special someone, never ever give up cause someday your dream will come true.
What do I do when I fall for a friend & tell him so I no longer have 2 pretend What happens is I fall even harder My feelings grow stronger & The time that Ive liked him grows longer & longer I want to be w/ him But I dont know what he feels I want to believe he feels the same way And I hope 2 find out some day But if he doesnt then Ill be 2 blame For getting my hopes up & my heart broken Maybe these feelings are betta unspoken Because I see how he flirts w/ every other girl And it feels like Im no longer in control of my world He makes me happy but angry and sad Why cant I just be glad That I mean something to him I mean I am his friend Am i confused cause i fell for my friend
Are you too picky? She's average!
Quiz made by Angela Eh. Life isn't that great. Cheer up. You'll get by. Give it some time. You should be back on your feet anytime. Maybe.
It was just a fling and nothing more
with the boy next door.
~*~when da world is hating jus take it all in.. .it might be worth something one day~*~
All girls are suspicious of girls that are "just friends'' w/ guys Because we know the guys we've had that were "just friends" we once thought of as more than a friend
•Over the course of the average lifetime, you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever, but occasionally someone comes along who earns a permanent place in your heart.•
±ThErE’s No HaRd FeeLiNgs…No-OnE tO BlAmE…JuSt TwO PeOpLe…WhO DoN’T FeEl ThE same±
Do you know how much it hurts ... to be standing there in your arms ... feeling your heart beat next to mine ... knowing that we cannot be together? Knowing that you're so close and yet you're still a million miles away? It's killer. My heart is so mixed up. It rejoices at the very thought of you and cries whenever you're near. And even though being "just friends" is perfectly fine, I can't help it ... I want to be with you.
I'm not the average girl from your video and I ain't built like a supermodel But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally Because I am a princess I'm not the average girl from your video My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes No matter what I'm wearing I will always be the one and only ME
friends can help you threw the bad times and bad times help you find your friends
"The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way" •Early morning, she wakes up Knock, knock, knock on the door It's time for makeup, perfect smile It's you they're all waiting for They go… "Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?" And they say…
Chorus
She's so lucky, she's a star But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking If there's nothing missing in my life Then why do these tears come at night
---End Crorus
Lost in an image, in a dream But there's no one there to wake her up And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning But tell me what happens when it stops? They go… "Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?" And they say…
Chorus
"Best actress, and the winner is…Lucky!" "I'm Roger Johnson for Pop News standing outside the arena waiting for Lucky" "Oh my god…here she comes!"
Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl? She is so lucky, but why does she cry? If there's nothing missing in her life Why do tears come at night?
Chorus -Lucky•
ØSo no one told you life was gonna be this way. [four claps] Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A. It's like you're always stuck in second gear, When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year,
Chorus
I'll be there for you! (When the rain starts to pour) I'll be there for you! (Like I've been there before) I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)
Verse 2
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight, You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great, Your mother warned you there'd be days like these, But she didn't tell when the world has brought you down to your knees.
ChorusØ
Maybe i'm a good actress.. because i feel so many emotions.. a day
life is full of choices no one ever mentions ±fear±
Its a broke day but everythin is ok I'm up all night but everything is alright it's a rough week and I don't get enough sleep It's a long year pretending I belong here
There's a new me coming out And I just had to live And I wanna give I'm completely positive I think this time around I am gonna do it
~*~ThErE iS a BiG dIfFeReNcE bEtWeEn BeInG tHe BeSt AnD yOuR bEsT~*~
Inside a mind..... ¬Inside a mind there is a story that awaits, a hurt that cant be described. Inside a mind there are thousands of memories, memories that are ancient, magical. Inside a mind there are screams of anger from the pain of a break up. Inside a mind there are favorites, enemies and love.¬
-I'll be there- *When no one is there for you* *And you think no one cares* *When the whole world walks out on you* *And you think you're alone* *I'll be there* *When the one you care about the most* *Could care less about you* *When the one you gave your heart to* *Throws it in your face* *I'll be there* *When the person you trusted* *Betrays you* *When the person you share all your memories with* *Cant even remember your birthday* *I'll be there* *When all you need is a friend* *To listen to you whine* *When all you need is someone* *To catch your tears* *I'll be there* * When your heart hurts so bad* * You cant even breathe* * When you just want to crawl up and die* *I'll be there* *When you start to cry* *After hearing that sad song* *When the tears just won't* *Stop falling down* *I'll be there* *So you see I'll be there until the end* *This is a promise I can make* *If you ever need me* *Just give me a call and...* *I'll be there...*
Right now it seems So far away A thing in our dreams Something of which we pray But each year it gets closer as We hear about he current class Throwing such a spaz But soon it'll be us partying our ass Off we go we will make it right Till the day we go to heaven Where everything is really bright Because we're the class of 2007
*We adore the ones who ignore us and ignore the ones who adore us*
*Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck*
*Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer*
Sophomore yr. + better then freshman because:
+ not as immature
+Older/wiser
+know the school
+my grades are better
+ordered my class ring and that will be coming the 1st week of December :)
+ My 16th birthday is coming up soon.
+ Drivers ed coming up = Liscence
+Driving
+ Not as many "issues"
- not as good as freshman yr
-harder classes
- i'm single this yr and i hate it.
- the freshman this yr are sooooo annoying (well most of them)
- things were easier
yeahhhh so. one with new and out with the old. trying to put the past behind.
So if you havn't firgured it out by now i'm not using this and i have a livejournal. which i'm not giving the link out to unless i want you to have it cause its "friends only" so yeah. the people i want to know about my life will know.
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection
When the pain is too much
When you are too scared to touch
When all around you falls
When no one hears your calls
Turn to me
I am all you need me to be
When the love has gone
And all you do seems wrong
When you cry your last tear
And no one is near
Turn to me
I will help set you free
When nothing heals the pain
And you lose all you gain
When your hand it too weak to hold
And you disbelieve all you're told
Turn to me
Your side I will not flee
When you're at your wits end
And there's no one to depend
When you wonder why
And all you do is sigh
Turn to me
I'll do whatever you ask of me
*You can close your eyes to reality but not to your memories.*
Yesterdayyyy i ended up going to my aunts house for a bit then to the licica mall for a few things Then to Kmart were i saw Kayla and she invited me to the movies but i couldn't go , got some shampoo there and a magizine and then went home. took a nap mom work me up around 4:30 cause i had a 5:00 ccd thingy, went to that.. _ BORING _!!
today...
art- started a sorta project that we do whenever we are done something.. i like mine kinda.Jamie you need to be in my group next time!!
french - everyone like left me in a point of time, but it was an ok class. Sarah is so awsome!!
math- had testing then i took a C3 lunch so i had it with Elena, Audrey, Sohpia and teddy and some other band people, then i sat with Kayla and NIna for a bit and as i was leaving i saw sarah and the other sarah and i talked to them for a bit.
english- did random stuff haha emma his tie did look like spagetti!!
not really doing anything tonight.. just homework.
tommorw i have my contacts appt. at 5. and right after school i'm paying H a visit to give her all of my NYC money. thennn wensday i have tap and i think thats about it for the rest of the week.. but i'm not really sure.
Put on my pj's and hop into bed,
I'm half alive but i feel mostly dead. I try to tell myself it will be all right,
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight....
Yesterday was fun. Around liek 11ish Sarah called and asked if i wanted to go shoppin with her and of course i did! She came to pick me up we went to the bank then to like salon/spa kinda thing for Sarah to pick up something. Then to get gas. As we were leaving the gas station we saw a limo and a guy waiting and a driver... and the licence plate said "celiberty 1" soooo we waited thinking it was a celb. but they weren't coming out so we went inside to buy something and turns it out i was and Irish wedding and they had stoped for beer. Then we went to Mcdonalds for Sarah and off to the porthsmouth TJ Max were sarah bought loads of pants and a few shirts and things and i got some hello kitty pj pants :). Then we left for Kohls.. yes sarah the O comes before the H!!! and we shopped there for a bit i ended up buying this really cute black shirt with pink and white poka-dots on it.. i love it!! and a red hoodie, i really wanted to buy a skirt but i didn't find one that i liked. I ended up spening ALL of my money i even had to dig for CHANGE!!!!!!! how horrible was that hhaha. Then Sarah and I walked to Old NAvey but they had nothing so we walked back to Kohls and looked around there for a bit then her mom was ready to leave so we got in the car and drove to fresh city.. haha i know its only like a few stores down but we did. and i got this GAINTTT salad and a smottie and sarah got a smothie,a lemonade and a sandwhich. well all and all it was SUPER fun but i'm was whicked tired when i got home.. i got home around like 6ish?? i think maybe earlier.. maybe later. Then i took a nap.. livi called which woke me up.. i was whicked grumpy to her SSOOORRRYYY livi!!! and then since i was up i just wanted the "PANIC ROOM" which was WHICKED GOOD!!!
and then i went to bed.
OH yeah and right after sarah called doug called and wanted to hang out.. and obvliously i coudlnt' cause i was going to be w/ sarah. then i guess he left a message wanting to hang out today and i'd call him but he's w/ the band at the NSCAR thingy and i don't think i can hang out today cause i'm kinda sick.. well i don't feel wel l:x
yep so blahhhhhh i think after i'm done talking to rich for a bit on his phone i'll go lay down.
Picked up Anno
"John... i guess you want John to win"
"We'll my mom does.. so yeah"
"now sarah can't do her cheers..."
"wouldn't that be if she poped up behind it"
"OORRR if she like ran right thru it.."
"AND on the sign it could say "sarah bond""
"people would like slow down the car to read the sign..."
" person: "sarah bond???? who is that" *Sarah runs thru the sign saying I'm sarah bond and then does her little cheer*"
then later at the game...
"omg alyssa are they going to run thru that!!!"
"yep"
"omg!!! can't you just see everyone like clapping and stuff for the football people but then sarah running thru"
"then the crowd would like got silently in confusion and then once they saw it was sarah they would alllll clap again!!"
Football game
well that was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Me and Anno got there and we saw Paula and we talked with her for a while then we saw Brad, Samantha and Jessica and they told us where to sit on the way there i saw Matt and we did our "slow run hug" haha that was amuzing then we went to go sit with Sam(which was right new to the band) we talked and stuff. then Samantha, Brad and Jessica came back, then the band started to play the opening stuff that was goood, they were wearing there little pocho's it was cute. like 3 of our guys got hurt and one was whicked bad he didn't move forever so they cut into 1/2 time but the band didn't go out so then finnially the amlbachence came and the stupid kid behind us was like bitching that kid out.. how would you feel if you were the parnets!!!! then H came walking across the feild and then a guy yells "give them hell mrs. huston!" and then me, sam, anno, brad, samantha, jessica and heahther started saying "we want the band" and then other people said it to :) then the band finnaly came on it was amazing!! :) i loved it, i really liked the color guard this yr, if i was ever to join band again it would be colorguard cause its more like dancing and stuff. but still guys the 1/2 time show was AWSOME good job: Livi, Sarah, Bobby, Joe, Rich, Ryan, Kevin, Josh, Amanda, Mike, Doug, Audrey, Elena and my other bandie people. Then it started to POUR so Brad, Samantha, and Jessica oh and Sam left. then Anno and I called my mom to come picked us up in the car so we could wait for Liv so we did and then we waited with Heather who had to stay cause obvloiusly Crista. And then.. guess who poped up.. Tyler blah he like said hi and then he like left or what not i was sorta putting on my sweatshirt at that time (see rich. i did end up wearing a sweatshirt over my extremley cool outfit that you couldn't see cause ONE you didn't go in the back in teh feild and tooo i was a drowned rat. Soooo my mom finnially came and we walked around the creeepyyy wayyyyyyyyyyy and got in the car and went to Mcdonalds and i got fries, Anno got hot chocolate and a pie and we got livi a pie and a hot chocolate.. SOOOO we drove back to the schoool and we heard the band so we thought they where done so we grabed some umbreillas from the car and tried to get in the building.. welllllll SINCE every door was locked... we ended up walking around the WHOLE building cause we firugred the back band door one would be open and we could just sneek in and wait for her there.... we turn the coner and guess what.. THEY ARE STILL IN THE STANDS!!!!!!!! so we tell andrew to give livi a message.. but then we found livi so we just told her and all was well. THENN we finsihed our walk around the building back to the car were we sat and waited for livi and then talked. We couldn't really find her haha and my pants were like soaked up to my knees it was nasty! finnially we spotted livi and we took her home and Anno and i came in to see the kitcken that she doesn't have!!!! and then got back in the car and went to Anno's dropped her off and then i went home. it was a rather good night minus being confromatable wet.. i like the rain though..but i hate it when you step in like muddle puddles.. and the water is liek soaked into your shoesssss.. haha yes anyways it was a good night and people liked my new glasses!!!!!
Kari and Gracie feel better, poor gracie we called her during the game and we found out she has Phenmoina :(
21st i am trying on my contacts to see if they fit :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
parnets are leaving early to get the microwave stand and to do a little bit of grocery shopppppingg.
8:48 - just in a a huge fight w/ my parnts... BLAHHH I hate this
tell me what will it take to get this through your head and tell me what will it take to get you on my good side again
so yesterday yay livi came over and such and then i went to tap class.. its not that fun anymore.. well it never really was.. i wish i was doing jazz or something where i was like moving more. but ohhh well. no big deal i guess. And then i was sorta getting the guilt trip from brad like theres and open audtion(which i'm pretty sure i'm going to go to) but he was all liek WHY Won't, Alyssa why don't you know about Tac, Alyssa how come your only going to see brodie 2 times? and he kept hounding me. it seems from the outside that he has it alot easier then me.. i mean he's homeschooled and he just bats his little eye lashes and get what ever he wants.. theres so much more that he doesn't know, i can't just drop everything eles just for acting, as much i would like to.. things just don't work like that sadly.
So.. yeah apparly he "loves" me now.. great lookkk what some innocent fun got me into now....
the day was longgg and boring. i think i did bad on those englishes quizes. i hate test!!!
my shirt from alloy came in today.. its pretty. I'm going to pick up my glasses after school so if your going to the game you can see me in them.. possibly if i decide to wear them.
You put yourself in stupid places
Yes I think you know it's true
Situations where it's easy to look down on you
I think you like to be the victim
I think you like o be in pain
I think you make yourself a victim almost every single day
You do what you do
You say what you say
You try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be everything to everyone
Yeah you do it again
You always do it again
You say they taught you to read and write
Yeah they taught you how to count
I say they tought you how to buy and sell your own body by the pound
I think you like to be their simple toy
I think you love to play the clown
I think you are blind to the fact that the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and fall
Yeah why don't you ever learn
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
Come on now
Do that stupid dance for me
You do what you do
You say what you say
You try to be everything to everyone
You jump through the big hoop
You play all the right games
You try to be everything to everyone
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah you do it again
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall
